Those days

I’m having on of “those days” today, actually I did yesterday too. Nothing in particular, at least out of the ordinary, has happened, but just can’t shake the blah feeling. Do you all get those days too? This is a down day on the Journey of Me.

I actually take antidepressants – they help overall, but occasionally these days just sneak in on me. Staying in bed curled up and asleep is what I would rather do. Nothing to worry about or be sad about then. It’s not that my entire day is sad, I laugh in there and smile from time to time, but just the overall mood yesterday and today is blah – and frankly a bit cranky too.

Grandma’s death is still heavy on my mind. My mom brought me a box of things of Grandma’s that she knew I would want. Grandma’s necklace and earrings that she wore every day. Some art supplies, her original wedding ring, my embroidery that Grandma had been showing me how to do since I was a little girl, things like that. The box is now in my bedroom -it’s just sitting there. Every time I walk by it a sad feeling comes over me – it reminds me I’m not going to see Grandma ever again. I guess just haven’t moved on to the next stage yet – I will get there though. Hubby thought he should move the box out of my site, but I told him not too.

The upcoming holidays usually make me happy, but I know I have to watch my budget really closely this year (just like most of you) and it stinks. I really like buying gifts for people that I think will make them happy and I don’t want to have to worry about how much things cost that much. Decorations for the holidays have been hit hard too – I decided I would not spend any money buying new things to decorate with this year. Ugh.

Have I mentioned that Taylor is going back to public school in January? No more homeschooling once he goes back – this saddens me too. We are doing what we think is best for him though.

Ok, I’m done venting. Thank you for listening. Hopefully, tomorrow won’t be one of those days…

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Shelbie Johnston

I have been having "one of those day's" all week! Don't know what it is :(
Fionen

I'm with ya. It's one of those days for me too. I tend to have more days like this during the fall and winter because there isn't as much daylight. Thank goodness for all of the holidays to get me through it.
brad

All I will say is i'm sorry you are having a hard time these last couple days. If I can help, let me know. You know this isnt my favorite time of year anyway, so my depression gets a lot worse… Im trying to keep my head above water too….
Hubby
plb8156

I definately can relate. It's been a tough year for me & some days I think I just can't do it, but I try to be strong for my kids & I will try to give them the best Christmas I can…I just keep expecting miracles,,they do happen :)
katy

I have those days, too. You are not alone. I hope you have better days.
Angie Marion

We all have those days sweetie, and losing someone is hard. I hope you get out of your funk soon but as you see – we're all here if you need us!
Shelbie Johnston

I take antidepressants too, but not working so well lately. My Son is going through a lot right now, and his issues become "my" issues,and my Grandsons too, so hard on all of us. I lost my Mom a few years back, still hard, this time of year especially, so I know how you feel. Huge hugs to you and if you need to talk, email me. Hope you feel better soon.
Stefany

I am sorry. :( I know how those days are as well.

I didn't realize you were sending your son back to school outside the home. ((hugs))
Lori

Good luck to you and to Taylor! Hopefully your funk will pass. Exercise with cathartic music and/or a movie that really makes me cry usually helps me.

My husband's Oma just called to say goodbye to him on Saturday. She's lived a long life–she's a Holocaust survivor after all, but it's been really awful here. I think I'm going to watch Life is Beautiful or What Dreams May Come for some perspective, and a good cry.
foamfan

I take an antidepressant, also, and it seems to not be working as well. Like Fionen said, the lack on sunlight seems to make things worse, this time of year.
I try to remember that this too, shall pass. Hang in there!
Diana H

When my dad died, I would be doing something – like taking a shower and think of my dad and how we'll never go hiking as a whole family ever again. It's hard to wrap your mind around that. But then I think, yeah, but we wouldn't have had that in the first place if he didn't love it so much. The legacy lives on in the trips we've taken with our children. It's slow healing, but it gets better.