Many of you know that I go to therapy regularly. We have gone for years actually with T but now I am actually going for myself as well. It is really very hard to dig down deep, but the efforts are paying off. Today is a good example.
I had to go to my primary doctor for all the fun well woman stuff plus regular physical stuff and following up on existing conditions, etc. I despise going to the doctor and honestly avoided it for a long time even. Today I was nervous about my appointment but when the time came I went. Yay me! They called me back, gulp, the scale was staring me down. I stepped on and saw my weight and dealt with it. Yay me! I went to the exam room and did all the preliminary stuff and did not feel nearly as much anxiety as before. Yay me! The doctor came in and I told her about all my current stuff and was very honest about everything. Yay me! Dealt with the poking and prodding part. Yay me! Got thru the entire appointment with no tears! Super yay me! Honestly, I almost always cry at the doctor’s office. Even the doctor was really proud of me today and could tell the therapy was working.
Why am I sharing this? One reason is because I find it helpful for myself to recognize when I accomplish things like this. The other reason is because I know that I am not the only one who has feelings like this. I know there are some of you who also struggle with just going to the doctor because you are so anxious about it. For all of you I want you to know it is okay! You can do it. Ask a friend if you can to be your cheerleader – ask them to help you make and keep the appointment – ask them to go with you if you need to. Then, when you are done, be proud of yourself!
I called my therapist in my car after my appointment and told her the same…..it’s working!
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