So in two days it will be three months since my surgery and the start of my weight loss journey that is actually working. Yay! There have been ups and downs along the way for sure since my last update.
Yesterday Hubby and I took a ride with the top down on my convertible and enjoyed the nice weather in St. Louis – I thought I would share the photo with you!
- A good down is that as of my last time on the scale I was down 65.2 pounds! This is my lowest weight in many years.
- Another not so terrible negative is that my clothes are starting to get too big, even underwear! Some of the folks in the support group nicely share what they have when it gets too big so I don’t have to buy new everything as I keep going. Since I still plan on losing weight it would get costly if I kept buying all new clothes the whole journey.
- I don’t know how to dress! Yikes! I have pretty much been a person who has worn loose fitting clothes and pants for a long time. I’m going to have to figure out how to dress better – thankfully I know some great fashion bloggers!
- Hmmm, well there is not a really elegant way to say this one, but elimination has been an issue. This is a problem that many people who have had weight loss surgery have. I am working on trying to get more water in every day and to eat more fiber. Right after surgery you are told low fiber while you heal.
- Wasting food is still an area that I struggle with. At home if I cook the same for the family it is not a problem, I can make my small portion plate and Hubby and T will eat the rest or have leftovers. When we go out I try to work with Hubby to find something we both like and we share since I eat a small amount only, but we do not always want the same thing. Even taking leftovers home, they do not always get eaten. It is a process and I’m trying to learn how to best order, buy, and prepare food.
- Overeating can still happen. Again, a less elegant area, but during my monthly cycle I crave salty/crunchy and the other day I goofed up by eating a bunch of croutons right out of the bag mindlessly while I watched TV. Sigh. The only thing you can do is to keep trying to learn from your mistakes and get back in the saddle. I do try to normally keep foods that I am more likely to eat like that out of the house – for instance Cheez-Its are not allowed in the house because they are like crack for me!
- While I have not had any Coke since before my surgery, I still crave it. I see the logo everywhere and I start salivating. Even the sound of a soda bottle or can opening or seeing the little fizz and bubbles when Coke is poured over ice is just torture! My therapist is going to help me with this particular fixation she said.
- I have more energy! Yes, more than the last time I updated you all. It sort of just keeps building. It is really nice.
- I feel better overall. Yes, same as above, more than the last time I updated you. My stomach feels better, my joints feel better, and my brain feels better!
- Discovering little “NSV” (non-scale victories) is fun! I can now see the bones in my wrist again and I was able to stick my hand down between my car seat and car door to adjust how close the seat is to the steering wheel without having to open the door. I get very excited with this small victories!
- Emotional eating I have been dealing with much better lately and I am very proud of myself for that. I thought this would be the hardest thing for me.
- It honestly seems like I am not getting as many of those “wow look how fat that lady is” looks when someone sees me. It is not something people say, just a staring kind of look – and honestly I have done it myself to other very obese people too. No one means harm by it, your eyes just go there and your brain notices. Who knew it would be nice NOT to be noticed!
So while my “ups” list may seem shorter, it really is much more significant than my down list overall. Feeling better and having more energy is just not something I can quantify – it feels amazing! I also want to make sure I share about the down parts though so those thinking about the same path I have chosen have some real life examples.
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